Sara's Letter

Gil,

You know I love you. I feel I've loved you forever.

Lately, I haven't been feeling very well. Truth be told, I'm tired.

Out in the desert, under that car that night, I realized something and haven't been able to shake it.Since my father died, I spent almost my entire life with ghosts. We've been like close friends and out there in the desert, it occurred to me that it was time for me to bury them. I can't do that here.

I'm so sorry.

No matter how hard I try to fight it off, I'm left with a feeling that I have to go. I have no idea where I'm going, but I know I have to do this. If I don't, I'm afraid I'll self-destruct and, worse, You'll be there to see it happen.

Be safe.

Know that I tried very hard to stay. Know that you are my one and only. I will miss you with every beat of my heart. Our life together was the only home I've ever really had. I wouldn't trade it for anything.

I love you. I always will.

Goodbye.

Reading, Viewing, Gaming

Most of my day was spent reading the CSI book Double Dealer. I have so many books to read before the 11th it's crazy. I got a bit behind during Christmas and New Years...

I watched Father of the Bride: Part II. It isn't a good as the first one, but it was watchable.

I played a game of multiplayer Sonic and The Secret Rings on the Wii with Stephen. We turned the difficulty of the bots to hard and we got pwned...

Life of Crime, Books

Mum and I went shopping today.

We originally went to go get some library books I had reserved.

I bought a yellow top and two boob tubes.

I also bought a new purse, which nearly matched my red hand bag.

I couldn't believe how many people were going into Strandbags.

Mum and I got a blueberry muffin and juice for morning tea.

We then went to Suzanne Grae.

We spent so long in there, as Mum kept trying on different pieces of clothing, some of which I picked out and they suited her.

The ladies working in the shop we trying to remember where a certain piece of clothing was to be put in the store and even though it was first time there, I knew where it was supposed to go.

We then bought Chinese food for lunch.

We got to the library, where Mum got her own card (well a new one because her other one was too old) and I picked up my ten reserved items; CSI: and CSI: Miami books, James Bond books and two CSI: Season 4 DVD's.

I wandered around the library while Mum sat and read.

We ended up getting home and 2 o'clock only to realise that the security locking system on the DVD's hadn't been opened.

After dinner, Dad and I went back to the library, where the lady who had served me before recognised me, and opened the DVD's in two seconds.

Heat Wave

For the last year, I have been looking for the CSI: Miami books. Today when I went to the library, I found some. I originally went to go find Mermaids by Patty Dann (the book based on the movie Mermaids) but they didn't have it. I ended up getting out a CSI: and CSI:Miami book and a book that Mum wanted to get out. I signed up to get a library card as well.

After that, my family and I did some general shopping, including getting some digital photos put in.

I went home and I made some Potato and Leek soup, which I haven't made in such a long time, but with a different recipe. I had to blend it when it was cooked. I put it all in, put my hand over the cover and turned it on. The cover then came off and a little flew out. Mum then told me not to push on the lid because I am putting pressure on the motor. I told her we have to hold the cover. Mum turned it on and the cover flew off and soup went everywhere! It went all over Mum's clothes, the bench and the floor. Luckily for me, none got on me, but unfortunate for Mum, she burnt herself on the hot soup.

I started reading the CSI: Miami book called Heat Wave. The book is set before Speedle dies. The characters act exactly the same, way like on the show with Eric and Speedle joking around and Horatio acting like he usual does (the whole hands on hips, I'm in control gig) . What is strange though is that it is set when it is raining. It hardly ever rains on the show...

Signing off.

The Unexpected Hot Day

Such a hot day today! Got to 37 or something. Our ducted air-conditioner is broken, so we had to use the old wall unit. I couldn't study for Human Biology properly because the heat was effecting my concentration, but I did quite a bit so I am happy.


I watched a bit of CSI: while eating my breakfast, Spiderman 2 during my lunch and a movie called Sabrina during my afternoon tea.

My drive to go becoming vegetarian is going very well. I actually want to go vegan, so I have cut out consuming milk as well. When I was feeding Missy the left-overs of the roast dinner, I felt this rush of guilt through me.

Signing off.

Mermaids

This morning I watched the movie mermaids. It is one of my favourite movies because it is so unusual. The movie is set in the 1950's in America. Charlotte Flax (Winona Ryder) is a 15 year old, very religious girl who wants to be a nun when she is older. She moves to her new town with her Mum, Rachel (Cher) and younger sister, Kate (Christine Ricci) and falls in love with the 26 year old Joe, the caretaker, who works at the convent (See how it is getting strange).

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She kisses him (just kisses him) about half way through the movie, and she thinks that she has done a terrible sin and believes that she God has made her pregnant. As she can't tell her Mum she is 'pregnant', she runs away from home.
Later on in the movie, Charlotte gives Kate some alcohol, but then Kate goes on to drink some more without her knowing. She takes her sister to go see the bell tower near the lake where Joe is. Charlotte wants to go up, but Kate refuses, saying she will go and find some rocks (one of her hobbies). Charlotte and Joe make love in the bell tower while at the same time, without Charlotte realising, Kate has lost her balance will walking on rocks and fell into the lake. As Kate is drunk, even though she is a very good swimmer, she nearly drowns and dies.
Told you it was strange, but I love the storyline (yes, there is a lot more to it than about Charlotte's side of things. There is a lot about Rachel, because she is very strange too).

I did some study for Human Biology.

I then played some SA:MP.

Then I did some more study.

I watched CSI: while I ate my guilt free dinner.

That's about it!