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I had such a bad night's sleep last night. I must have had a fever, because I was freezing cold. My stomach was aching. I felt really sick. I tossed and turned.

Today was the last day of school forever and I felt so alone. Everybody was talking with everybody else, signing people's shirts and books, whereas I had put myself to the side, feeling sick. People were taking photos with every person they could find and I felt like an outcast. Not many people wanted photos with me. I felt like I had to ask them to take my photo. I was in such a bad mood with how sick I was feeling and how tired I was because of it.

The six of us Chemistry girls had organised to have a private party. It didn't turn out to be one. Everyone else who was in the lab area came into OUR room to steal OUR food. People have been having parties and we weren't allowed to come to them. How come they were given right to come and steal our food? They kept coming back. I felt like I could scream at them. A few times we told them to leave and they still came back. I was so upset because I wanted to have a few hours with my Chemistry friends. I was so quiet. When everybody had left, which was five minutes to the bell, I exploded. I started talking loudly and banging the tables in such frustration.

I have to go to my brother's football trophy presentation night. He finally got his 50 game medallion which he should have got two years ago. The whole thing went to long and we left half way through. I said to my parents that our school presentation are quicker then theirs, plus we have "entertainment". The thing I found strange, is that a football club that endorses fitness and health provided Chooks for everyone. It was so boring that I was nearly falling asleep.

Why is everybody stuck one way? What is up with everyone sticking with their boyfriends all the time? Pushing your friends away is the most horrible thing you can do, because when you need someone to talk to other than your boyfriend, you will have no one.

I FEEL SO ALONE.